So I've started dating. Well, I guess you could call it that.

I've tried meeting people online, and I've talked to a lot of people. It seems as though everyone wants one of two things 1) Sex 2)An immediate boyfriend, so they can accomplish #1 without guilt (presumably).

Most everyone I've chatted with has given me a weird vibe, and the people I've met have been... not so cool. From completely self involved and unaware to people who seem to just scream for attention. It's gotten to the point where I feel that 'bad vibe' with everyone i chat with.
 
I mean, I'm new to this, but I'm not an idiot. I have a good idea of what I want.

I wish it were easier to meet people.

But it's hard, ya know? No one knows I'm gay unless I (or someone else) tells them. It's not something easily brought up in conversation, and when it does come up i feel akward and nervous.

I'm chilling with a group of people, it comes up that I'm gay, and it's this big to do. It's this huge issue that is suddenly on everyone's minds. I want to tell them, that just because I'm gay doesn't mean I'm going to hit on them; I mean, I know if someone is straight they don't want to be THAT kind of friend. I understand. I'm not some horn dog. But people don't understand that, I don't think. and it's not something that is easily conveyed through words, rather it's something that is shown. But people don't give me that chance...

Blah.

I'm a DUDE. I like wrestling, porn, video games, computers, competition, fighting and cars. But it doesn't seem like there is anyone else like that. Everyone else seems really 'fem' to me... and damn it, it's hard to find guys that are like me, they don't stick out.

I SUCK AT DATING AND MEETING PEOPLE