I had met someone online, and decided to go out. His phone died when we were trying to meet up, so instead of going out to eat at around 730 / 8 i get a call from him at about 12. He lives 45 minutes away and told me that he had worked 14 hours and wanted to know if it was cool if he crashed at my house...
So, being the nice guy I am, I went to walmart and bought bedding materials for the air mattress I had.
He came over and we chatted. He seemed nice enough, but I didn't really feel attracted. We ended up watching a movie and I decided that it would be a good idea to drink a little, to losen up.
Anyway, we ended up 'snuggling' naked on the bed. I'll leave out the details, we didn't have sex though..
he kept telling me I was cute, and calling me hun and boo. which, i thought was a little annoying..
I dunno what the fuck I'm supposed to feel. I feel upset, I feel like all these years have been a lie, because as soon as I had the opertunity to mess around with someone, I took it. Opposed to my usual aloof self.
He wanted to come over and 'talk' but I told him i wanted to be alone.
So i feel like shit. I feel like I've let myself down. And I don't know how to convey that to this guy without sounding like an asshole.