Greetings and salutations to everyone.  I had considered writing an entry or two this past weekend, but it was not meant to be.  I felt quite bad this weekend; physically, mentally and spiritually.  It all started on Friday morning with that awful dream and it never got any better.  As I sit and write this, it is Monday afternoon, and ironically, I feel a bit better now.  I do believe that working seven days a week is already starting to take a toll on my spirit.  I’ve only been doing it about a month, and with holidays taken into consideration, I have had some days off.  So, it seems rather weak of me to be tiring so easily. 

Still, I feel I was meant for so much more than this trivial work.  I have been given the gift of song, a great ability to entertain people and bring light into their life, and instead of using it, I have basically let it sit upon the shelf and collect dust.  Not only does it make me feel useless to others – I too miss singing and performing for friends and family.  I have all the tools I need, I just never use them.  Unbelievable, when you consider how hard I’ve worked throughout my life to learn how to play keyboards, bass guitar, and sing.  All that work – and now instead of reaping the benefits of my work and given talent – I waste it and sleep.  I have no excuse.  I am a poor example of a musician.

When will I finally make a decision to become the person I already am?