eeeee it has been a loooong time. I'm skippin the shit that would make my font look good and nice little pictures and whatnot cuz really, I don't have the time or the patience to do that shit right now. Well lets see, its uhm like 4 in the morning and I thought since OD is finally lettin me stay logged in, I thought I'd update with something meaningful and relevant. Life's kinda hektic right now, death, depression, anger, ya know all that great shit. I'd say just about the only thing that hasn't stopped me from killing someone or myself is my girlfriend. But that's besides the point. Couple weeks ago friends dad had siezures, went into a coma.. died yesterday. Funeral on wednesday. Sad shit.. I'd consider this dude a good friend of mine, we were always very open with each other. Eh, but death is part of life can't change that so I'm going to try and not focus on that. Let's see, I've been taking up guitar and working alot with that, heh.. Band in the making I guess.. not sure who is gonna sing or if I'm gonna work just with one person or do a full band right now. Theres 3 people I really want to work with at some point in time. I just gotta keep going with that. I haven't been able to write as far as poetry or songs or anything, writers block is a bitch. Seems as though I can't get one word to start a line, thats how bad it is. Oh well, I'll live without writing (besides the fact its the number one way I express myself). This weekend my homie is supposed to bring his drums over so we will prolly work hard on new shit for the band and just different intros and chords n shit. I'm glad I've finally started doing what I've been wanting to do for years. I wonder how bad I'm gonna feel after wednesday though.. I feel like shit already.. I have for 2 weeks.. Anyways I should probably sleep.. heh I'm gonna try to update this anytime I have something to say.. if you read this.. I'm sorry to bore you with my shit..