and so by chance i have found

 the very gates of hell

and curious i peered into the gloom

only to find myself already there

if only as a ghost

pale and staring back at me.

why am i here? i asked

you already know.

came hollow words

i cringed for yes

 i knew.

and when? i asked

do you not remember?

again i shook my head

for yes

 i knew before i spoke