I'm out of my mom's house. Staying with my cousin, actually.
So I went to Thailand with 8 other people. Had a blast, saw a bunch of things. In fact, here are the photos
I came back, and it being close to holiday season, and me training for the marathon in February, and work having piled up, I was quite busy. All this while, my mom has decided to take on a project of her own remodeling the house. This is fine except that she felt that I am unsympathetic to her cause and kicked me out. Throughout the past few months, she has slung many evil things to me like calling me a filthy wh*re, countless threats to kick me out, yelling, midnight temper tantrums, etc etc.
So, it was somewhat of a relief not being inundated with all that negative emotion. Of course, I miss the happy times, but realizing how she had damaging effects on my psyche, I don't regret this decision one bit.
In the end, I've come to the conclusion that I just don't want to be angry or upset anymore. When a slightly selfish 28yr old woman is living with her slightly compulsive mom, problems are bound to happen. I didn't want to be bitter with my mom or resent her. Leaving her may have been cruel, but I think in the bigger picture, it was the right decision.
Now, I really enjoy running because of so many reason. Part of it is because it's one of the few things that I ONLY do for myself, and not for anyone else, and no one is helping me. It's a purely selfish activity, and it's an incredible feeling. Another part is the runner's high!! I had always thought it's in the person's imagination, but it isn't! I have actually felt euphoria after a particularly difficult 5mi run. This is the same reason I like moderate hills. The other reason is that it builds my confidence. I can now run 10 mi without stopping. How awesome is that?? That's such a HUGE accomplishment for me. That I, with zero athletic aptitude, zero athletic experience, sitting in the office all day, could do this is a great confidence boost for me. All I had was the "I think I can" attitude and I know I will.
I guess that's it for me. Getting quite sleepy. I need to run tomorrow morning. Hopefully I'll be able to get up!