time heals all, humm...b/c it's been five damn months since my miscarriage and i still feel as shitty if not more now...why me...WHY, why did i have to go through this why is it so much easier for others to give their child up or to abort or to just pop them out w/out any worries...WHY, can anyone answer that...b/c i'm not sure what to do anymore.....i'm back to crying myself to sleep at night , i'm back to dreaming about my little wonder....i'm back to feeling as  horrible as i did before....not only do i want to know why the hell me but why can't i get pregnant why the hell are all these other woman screwing around able to have babies and just hand them off like nothing but me....as much and as long and as much as i want a child....i hate myself for not being happy forevery person i see that is pregnant but  i hate myself more for letting this run mylife...maybe i'm just not meant to be happy in that since..maybe that's a joy that other take for granted that i'll never be able to expierince...if things still were i'd be about 8 weeks from the due date...the date of holding my most precious gift...my pride and joy....that day will come and pass and i know the date it self will be the hardest of them all, i know my mom is trying to help me and i know she means the best....then there's my loving husband who i know isn't sure how to handle the situtation i mean hell he didn't even talk to me about it all, but now when i get upset he just acts like i'm crazy and losing my mind...acts like i shouldn't be upset and maybe i should hell i don't know of anything..i do know that maybe it's not normal to be this way after almost 6 months but WHAT DO I DO........HOW DO I STOP HURTING.....HOW DO I GET OVER THIS....

HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!