okay so like....lj doesnt work anymore...

I have to log in to update. but then log out, do a search for my journal, and read my friends page from there and who's ever is friends only i loose out on because i cant read it, man livejournal is stupid. so liek this is gonna be my default journal. not liek any one i know reads this but whatever. maybe its for the best? and theres gonna be some reason the other one doesnt work. because "everything happens for a reason" um yeah. i really dont quite comprehend why i have the feelings i do for kyle. i mean yeah im happy with him, and i duno why but when i talk to him i get annoyed, and its not liek most people where it liek goes away in five minutes, andfor some reason....that attracks me more. like wtf. but lately it hasnt been his fault i was getting annoyed. it was just "that time of the month" but yeah

oh yeah i was liek sleep before, and liek i got a text. and like now i cant go back to sleep. thanks sara haha. Man i want my mom to like get a new computer so i can put this computer in my room.that would be awesome. i need to invest in some nyquil. yep yep.

I'm for sure in love with Silverstein. but yeah liek i duno what to do with my life. Its like everymorning i liek to go see kyle, it kinda adds liek "a good start to my day." but with this one its like a "no talk about" kind of thing. but i guess thats reasonable because id get tired if one of my friends only talked about one guy. so i try to keep him to a minimum when im with my friends.

but i think we need to hang out again, cause i kinda liek...block everything out....and im just...happy. As weird as that sounds, but yes, it is true.

I know you'll never change.
I won't be good enough for you

man just so much on my mind but i cant translate it into words. and like this stupid school thing is really REALLY bothering me. i dont know what i want to do with life :/ i dont want to grow up. and yes im definitely scared to grow up, because i hate to make decisons...but i guess i should start working on that some time soon right?

well im out. later