long day...too long for someone like me..but i tend to get by anyway...this day started for me at nine...not too early for some but its always is for me....spent day searching for my own innocents...but ended up accomplishing a little bit...enough to put a few check marks next to a few procrastinations...class tonight..and then same old routine...im fine with routine...this day forced me too spend to much time outside my comfort zone...and after class id be more than willing to crawl back in...jake and i and a few familiars...who knows where the evening will go...i have approximately and hour until i hit the books...these are the minutes i use to get into preparation for the soon to be unfolding evening.... the little things we do to get by...talked to elenor.........and i dont feel like i need to say anymore than that......these last few encounters with her have led me to the one only rational...realistic...mature answer i as a simpleminded okie could pull out of my ass.......

reasons for breaking up with elenore
standard line #1(the most useless excuse of all)
this isn't working...and im going to be gone in less than five months
standard line #2 (real reason)
we dont click...you are still a kid...even if your eighteen you don't show it
standard line #3
ive known you for seven months...yet i know nothing about you...you never want to talk about you..and i have no evidence to establish a sufficient relationship on
standard line #4
all these problems you have with your parents...i may never get to know your family...how can i love you and not your family too

these are the problems...there is only one solution...and im never on to make tears fall...but that is probably what it will be.....i dont know what attracted me to you..and i think i was just lost in the summer crush...the season of romance..the season of crush love...thats all it was..and it should of ended last summer...sadly i dont know if this will really effect her...she is still such a child..such a dumb little girl...i shouldn't care like i do....i shouldn’t do allot of things... but i still do......................................