It's funny how one person can make you so happy but then a choice few can make you so unbelievable sad. As i sit on the couch and hear the unbelievable bitching about how horrible I am as a person and also as a daughter. I've never felt like my parents understand the way i am, and this was the icing on the cake. Sitting just listening to them tell me how i am worthless and don't deserve anything, really hurts me. this has been an ongoing situation for a long time. i am constantly kicked down and told things that are just hurtful. i don't think they see the pain they are putting me through. i have been so close to just packing my things up and leaving. Now i have the opportunity if it is still open. I have been planning on leaving for a while and now the path seems a little more clear. There have been things brought to light, and now i can actually do something about it. I may have a hard time granted, and my sister may have some trouble with me leaving-but I'm not doing it to hurt her. I need this for my sanity and everyone else too. the unseen stress that i have on me right now is to much to bare and I am about to bust. I just hope that everything goes ok this weekend if my plans work out. Randy is suppose to come and meet my parents and I'm actually not even nervous about this one. All the other guys ever brought home I've been scared for them to meet..but I'm actually not. I have no clue why though. One would think with such controlling and demanding parents that i have-I would be.I just feel like singing to get the pain to go away. I feel like screaming to escape~Hopefully it will get better and everything will work out fine!