|It's always about you.|
Kids are back from Disneyland, safe and sound. :) They had a blast.
Yesterday I had a client have a freak out in middle of the store. I was so focused on getting her OUT OF THERE that it wasn't until 9 hours later that I realized that the handful of items in my hands I never actually paid for.
In other news. Our night shift person quit via text message earlier this week. I covered one NOC shift for her last week when she called in "sick" which is the fist time in many many years that I have been awake for 24 hours strait. I guess after calling in sick two Saturdays in a row she figured that she didn't have much chance of being around long.
My boss wanted me to sit in for interviews and we hired someone. And then later told me that she is signing me up for leadership training. In the same breath that she hinted that she didn't think the assistant administrator would be around long. This is after she already told me she wished I had applied for the job.
I go between being excited (umm, second in charge sounds more than cool to me) and feeling - do I really WANT more responsibility? Do I want to be the person who HAS to drop everything and come in when someone doesn't show up (it would be "on call" for 3.5 days)? Do I want to be the person that does performance reviews? Do I even WANT to stay in this field? (No... not really). And what does this mean for my schedule? (I LIKE my schedule very much thanks, it could be a tad better but I will probably be working Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday if I had to be 2nd in charge). Or that she will expect certain things of me like.... that I go on 4 day camping trips with clients.
I want better pay. I want experiences that are going to help with my resume. I want the "prestige" that comes with passing up multiple staff that has been there longer. Paid holidays off would be nice. And I don't mind the paper work and what not. I'm naturally good at those type of things. I have had several people tell me that I would be good at that type of job. I suppose that if it was all left at the job, I WOULD be. It is the bringing it home part that I really don't want to do right now..
Anyway. So when she asked me if I "planned" to move up in the company, I lied and said yes because what else am I supposed to say? She has already told me she wanted me to be the assistant, already had me doing interviews with her, and already said she has reason to believe that other person may not last. I feel bad that I only see the company in my future another year or two (maybe three if I do get a promotion).... But I have never been "sneaky" about my future plans. Not that I have any specifically right at the moment but when the economy improves, I DO plan to branch into something closer to what I want to do. She jumped right out and asked me that and I wasn't prepared to even think about what I want. What I want? I want a freaking living wage damn it! I want decent work hours and I want enough time to actually get my work done.
How is that for a start?