I like the house I live in right now. Its not a super fancy house or anything. Its just a little three bedroom ranch house with some craftsman accents to it. I just painted it green and we got a new roof on it too. It just looks so much nicer and so cozy green I think. I really like the color green. If I were a super villain or super hero my color would be green I think. First off green is the color of my eyes. Secondly green is the color of boogers and when I was little my brother, the asshole, used to say I liked the booger girl. I don’t even know who the booger girl was but I do know if you liked her that made you the booger boy. Years later my nephew moved into my old bedroom that I shared with my retarded asshole brother and hes all moving in and making it his room ya know. Later on he comes downstairs and is like “Who wrote Dirk likes the bogger girl in my closet?” yeah my asshole brother is a worse speller than even me! Though my love affair with the booger girl was fleeting it made me the man I am today.

I wanted to get the garage painted before winter but I highly doubt that will happen. I just hope I can get a fence put up so my dog can run around freely and not always have to be tied up. I hate that. The other day I was at home depot and this guy had the fucker behind the paint counter trying to match this color. Now I have delt a lot with the paint counter guy. He has horrid breath. It is probably shallow of me but that was enough to make me dislike him. I dont like people in general though so fuck it. Anyways hes busting ass trying to do a custom match to this guys color sample he brought in of siding like vinyl siding right. Anyways he gets done and the guys like that dont match perfectly. And so the guy says well if you want perfect I don’t know what to tell you. And so that dude leaves and doesnt buy the gallon of paint this dude just made. Hahahah it was a pretty color though. Like a clayish green color. I liked it. Anyways all that is to say I had no idea you could have them create a custom color and then say fuck you and leave without paying for it. Thats how you get those odd colors that are half off.

I walked Porter twice today. I feel like walking again. I dont know if ill take him with me though. I am sad and I often walk around when im sad. I miss living in the ghetto sometimes. Is that nuts? I dont know. I dont feel right here. I like it and all but I dont feel right. I can honestly say I havent felt at home since I was 15. wanna know something pathetic? Some of you know this already. I have been thrown out of ever home I have ever known. My mom threw me out when I was 16. Since then I have been bouncing around really. I never feel safe or at home. I never feel settled. Id love to feel at home again. Id love to have a home that I cant be thrown out of. It sucks living under someone elses roof. You better be a charming mother fucker if yer gonna do that the rest of yer life. Or be beautiful. I dont know. You definitely need value to do it. Whoever owns the home better value your ass for some fucking reason. I dont have much value.