|Welcome to my life...|
I'm at work today. Standing there doing a mediocre job at my mediocre job. I looked around, and there was Than. He asked if I had lunch. I said no. He said he'd be back. A few minutes later he came back, bag in hand, handed me the bag, and said "Here's lunch." He bought me lunch. We didn't have lunch together but let me say that the philly cheesesteak sandwich was awesome! It was so sweet. He came a mile just to make sure I had a hot lunch.
I'm mentally in a bit of a funk tonight. I had a nightmare this morning. A real nightmare. A terrifying nightmare, and I am not sure why it bothered me so much but it did. I guess I must have been making some kind of noise in my sleep because Than woke me up. He knew I was having a nightmare. He woke me up to make sure I was okay.
That dream still bothers me.
I was in my old apartment. I was trying to make tuna. Yes frikkin tuna. I was exhuasted from trying, yes trying, to make this tuna so I decided I would just go to bed. I wasn't in bed five minutes when I heard that stupid storm door creaking open. I listened because no one should have been coming in that time of the night. Someone knocked on my door. I yelled, and asked who it was. I remember thinking it was dad but the person on the other side of the door wouldn't answer me. I asked again who it was, and finally I said that I would call the cops if the person didn't go away. It was at this point that Than woke me up. I don't know who or what was on the other side of the door. It still bugs me.
The last couple of nights have found me having nightmares. Being chased. Running. I'm a big believer in hidden meanings, and I think I can understand, scratch that, I know where it's coming from. I know where my fears are, what they are. What can I do about them? Nothing much. I can do some things but will I? No.
I'm just rambling here.
I'm super glad to be upgraded to she who shall not be named. Funny thing is that Than, and I have one of those too. Someone we refer to as she who shall not be named. I just never saw myself as being that person.
Today is my dad's birthday. Happy Birthday dad. I called him to wish him a happy birthday.
Troy is still in the hospital. He got iron last night, and blood today. He sent me a text today telling me that he didn't tell me, dad, or the girls everything because if he did it would scare us. lol. I said no it wouldn't. We don't care that much. I do care. I really do. I just wish that we were closer.
The baby is doing fine. She's gained 3 ounces since she was born.
Yes I'm rambling here.
Lunch was awesome though!