i hope all of you had a great christmas (or whatever you celebrate..)!! it went by soo fast.  i'm happy to say that no police showed up to the family get together on christmas eve. you'll neeever get us!! muahaha

the patriots game is on.  we're having a bit of a rough time right now. i blame it on the fact that i didn't go out and drink and watch it somewhere. rather, i stayed here alone and watched "Grizzly Man" on Animal Planet. for those of you that live under a rock, grizzly man is a 2005 documentary by Werner Herzog, about Timothy "Treadwell" (Dexter). He spent 13 seasons studying and living with grizzly bears, only to be consumed by the ONE that he couldn't befriend. in my eyes, he's a brilliant man; lower on my totem pole of nonconformists only to mr. supertramp.

many people claim that the two were suicidal and lived with no regard for others, but i think its complete trash. both of them talked so bluntly about the dangers of living in Alaska, while making it undesputably obvious and they didn't have a death wish.  and to the notion that they didn't give a damn about anyone else - they both wrote of the love they had for family members and friends.  it wasn't that they lived for themselves, they were just too disgusted with society and the ignorance and brutality that an escape to the wild was the best option.

i see sooo much of myself in people like them.  its scary. i have a motorcycle and love riding in the rain. i'm stubborn and a bit arrogant but only want to make everyone happy and help save the world.  however, as i get older my discontempt for the way so many of us live and think and just don't give a damn is growing. i'm only 20, so i hope something comes along and saves me before i do something dumb.  no, i'm not in ANY MEANS at all no matter what never ever will or have been suicidal.  but i really need some saving.

"...but when its time for leaving, i hope you'll understand.  that i was born a rambling man."

i'm so haaaapppy :)