Much has happened since my last update and things are looking up. Thanks to some time to let the dust settle and some council from Marlowe's father, she has accepted my request to move out. She is going to be moving into the hotel like I suggested. Might be difficult for her, especially at first, but in the long run I believe it will be for the best. Through email discourse her father commented that Marlowe will probably grow and mature more in the next few months than she has her whole life, and I couln't agree more. Independance makes anyone more self sufficient and helps them get to know themselves much better. Relations with her family have become much more eased as well over the last week and a half.

The only problem is her best friend saw it fit to get involved. First she emailed my friend Matt, whom she has never spoken to in her life, and asked him for some commentary. Then a couple of nights ago she sent me an obnoxious email through myspace that said she she was sorry  Marlowe was being a total bitch and giving me zero respect and wanted me to call her. This is the second time she has said something abnoxious about Marlowe in the last couple of months. Marlowe read the message and was really hurt. Basically, I though this was way out of line, especially since she addressed the email "hey sexy", so I called her to explain a few things to her. During the brief dialogue she proceeded to go from what she said about Marlowe to questioning my honesty and integrity, so I gave this little numbskull a piece of my mind. Basically, that I trusted Marlowe and she trusted me as far as I can tell, and that she fucked up and if she valued her friendship at all that she had better call and apologize quickly. Well, they made up today but her friend says she wont talk to me again most likely. Completely fine by me. I don't have the time or the desire for friendship with people with the mentality of a twelve year old. It is funny how alike the two are in how they talk about each other. Marlowe talks shit about Alexis and Alexis was talking a lot of the same shit about Marlowe to me on the phone. This is the accumulation of 16 years of friendship?? shesh. It also kind of concerns me that I had to confront Marlowe about emailing Matt for the same reason Alexis did - she didn't tell me until I asked. I told her I emailed her father. Also, she has found my opendiary and has been reading it and hasn't told me about it. I had to find out though another party. This concerns me a lot too in terms of open dialogue. I hate the feeling that she feels she needs to snoop around secretly.  So I again state, Read this at your own risk Marlowe. I don't need to hide who I am.

Besides that, things are getting back to normal and I am focusing on school and myself more again. I went to a sweat lodge ceremony for the first time in a couple of months yesterday and it was helpful. The group has widdled down into a large native american family and a bunch of other random people. Much more consitant attendance from these people and it provided more of a family atmosphere. I felt welcome more than I have since last summer. I like these ceremonies. They help me focus on and remember what I am thankful for in life, and that is good. If more people could do this I feel the world would be a better place by far. I'll keep dreaming.