so i asked andy to prom. he said sure. im so confused. last thing i knew was that he was bitching about how prom is gay and theres no reason for anyone to want to go. but its all good. i just hope that hes not gonna be an ass about it in like a week or two. ill be soo pissed if he pulls his stupid shit.  but as for rite now, YES! im thinkin he only said sure cuz i was like yeah if i dont get a date will u go with me? only IF i dont get one? so yeah..i hope he doesnt think that i will cuz i know that i wont. and i really would only go with him if i had no one else. hes an ass sometimes and hes got himself a girlfriend which pisses me off cuz i had to find out the hard way. her names sarah i guess. erg. fuck that shit.  i was thinkin earlier 2day and i dont think that i like him like that no more. hes too much of a jerk.  hes fine as hell and can be such a sweetheart, but at the same time hes the complete oppisite.  hes so confusing. i swear that hes gonna drive me crazy trying to figure him out.  but then again i dont think hes one of those people that u can understand no matter how hard u try. and that makes him even more appealing to me.  but i dont like him like that no more. i wanna get to know him just the same tho.  i dont know how that works but i guess it does because thats how it is.  life is so confusing. it really really is. one minute things r going great then all of a sudden u get lost and confused and just wanna curl up in a ball until things get back to the way they were like a hour before.  life wouldnt be life if it didnt have those unexpected changes like that. and that would be even more weird and difficult to live that life. this whole thing is just so weird. i cant make up my mind about how i feel, and it makes me wanna cry. im not one to be that confused. i know what i want, but its the two things that arent at all like each other.