i did what i thought was right, great, lol. then after i said it all of a sudden i realized that it wasnt the smartest thing in the world. actually more like a disaster. fuckin ay.  andys mom walked into the store today and while she was checkin out i was talking to her. i asked her if he got a ride home and she said yeah, but i cant believe that he called u asking for one. he knows better.  then i asked her to remind andy that hes taking me to prom on saturday and we talked a lil bit about that, whether it was mine or his. she asked if there was a reason to remind him and i told her just what he said. "ill see what im doing" she was like omg i raised him better than that. now thinking back about all that. andy is gonna have one hell of a fit. hes already mad at me for not picking him up last nite.  he has nerves thinking that id drive all the way downtown just to pick him up and bring him back here. i dont fucking think so. then he gets mad at me. what the hell. its not my fault i was tired, grounded, falling asleep, and my mom took my keys. god damn hes pissing me off. then today i was reading his xanga and its like blah blah blah and my oh so sexy amazing girlfriend. hold up. what?! i mean i knew that he was with someone, but i didnt think that it was actually like going out going out cuz he was still partyin, making out with me and shit. i guess it was just in my mind that they werent actually together. i must have convinced myself that. cause i know that he told me. well halima told me, he called asked him how his girl was then hung up on him. then he..i dont know. im so frustrated that i cant even think about anything right now. its fuckin saturday nite and im sittin here writing this. this is so sad. i would be at the neutral zone right now, but i dont wanna see what andy has to say to me. ill wait til he calls me, if he ever does again. ok im done im just thinking about the worst things. too bad thats how things always end up anyway.

FUCK THIS SHIT