so yet again, im betrayed. shes all tellin me that irish aint talkin to her and shit and that hes mad at her cuza saturday night. well it slipped out 2day that shes been with him the past 2 days and nights. we were supposed to chill last night when i got off work and she promised me she'd be home when i called. cuz her mom normally yells at me if i call after 9, so i called her at 10ish when i got off work and she wasnt jome. so i called her boyfriend, she wasnt with him either. and she wasnt answeringher phone either.  so i asked her 2day and she was lik eummm welll...i was with irish.  i guess it was for the better, i mean if i chilled ewith her i wouldnt have taken david home. and if i hadnt taken him home he wouldnt have kissed me. so i guess it all works out in the end but still i dont like getting lied to...over and over again about the same thing.  if theyre fucking i just wanna know the truth. i cant do nething about it either way so i dont understand why they just wont tell me. or maybe they are tellin me the truth.  they both swear up and down that they arent doin nothing, but they way they act around each other seems different.  err i dont get why i cant just find a guy that will treat me like i treat them, amazing and right.

because of andy my standards are soo much lower than they should be. anything is better than him.