One show down one to go and then 13 days and I get to start my new life.  Wow that sounds sad and depressing but I'm so excited!!!  Literally 32 days until I move in!!

OKay so i'm sorry it has been so long since i have written and this is going to be real fast too.  I'm not going to go back and grammer/spell check it so be prepared for a rough ride ahead!   SNW finally closed sat and we had strike and the cast party (well we have been partying every night so it wasn't really a big deal, but whatever)  I am kinda sad it is over but it just means i am closer to leaving, more in a sec.  Today we start rehearsal for L5Y blah!  I love doing theatre it is my passion, my art! The big question right now is:

"Can I do theatre for a living? Do I want to??"

I always said that i wanted it to be a part of my life but that i didn't want to do it as a perfession but being around these theatre people who do it and want to do it makes me feel like i have to...NEED to.  The big problem here is that that SNC doesn't have the program that i would need to do what i want to do, i don't think.  maybe it is cold feet but i wanna go to St Bens.  I know it, i know the program, and I can do what i want to there. I am so scared to leave everything ihave ever known and everything i love and go to this strange place.  I have to start all over.  I have been doing ALOT of self reflection and i have come to realize my i make such a horrid first impression.  I am just not myself, i feel ike i have to be someone else to make friends. FUCK ME!! whatever, i'm scared shitless

I can't wait to move out and meet new people, and hopefully find the love of my life and some of my best friends in life (although they could never replace you guys)  I can't wait to start this new adventure.  I AM SO EXCITED!