You're mad again.. I just wanted to tell you that everythings not okay. I needed someone to tell me everything would be okay, I needed you to tell me that you still care and that you'd always be there. Instead your mad.
And I'm sorry that I fucked up again. Seems like that's all I can do. So what's the point? this is not worth it anymore.
love is the only thing keeping her alive  love failed me. Love let me down ripped out my heart and smashed it into the ground day after day month after month year after year. But no one seems to notice. And now this.
I JUST WANTED TO TALK but all I have for you is hysterics and all you have is goodbyes so goodbye.

I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE
I knew a time would come where the past and the future kinda hit head on and I'm stuck in the middle I knew in February that things were only going to get worse it just took some time getting here and on the way I've chased everyone off. Now it's just me and my memories and my goals in one big tug of war. Look behind me I see every reason to stop caring give up be careless and stupid until I go too far and never get the chance to fuck anything else up again. Look infront of me and everything is begging me to pull it together one last time but this time do it for yourself kid WHY CAN'T YOU EVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOUR FUCKING SELF?

sat up this morning looked around, I'm alone
finally hearing all the times she screamed
"YOU'RE THROWING IT ALL AWAY"
and I'm sorry, I'm sorry I was never strong enough.