feeling scared
feeling helpless
beautiful scars line the surface
unable to attain anything so surreal
unable to alliviate the the anguish thta I feel

*wishing I could erase what I know
wishing I was only five years old
another little pixy, Daddy I love you so
but I've graduated from kindergarten
while my blood stained the dirty snow*

never expecting to be thrown so deep
cupping the blood from the cuts that seep
with blackened makeup, I'll paint the world away
so fucking ashamed of me,
mommy you hate me today

it was cold outside
and I couldn't find my coat
but it doesn't matter
I was eternally numb from head to toe

*wishing I could erase what I know
wishing I was only five years old
another little pixy, Daddy I love you so
but I've graduated from kindergarten
while my blood stained the dirty snow*

and the way you look at me in utter disgrace
always surpassing the perfectionists face
again

so lay me down to rest
blanketed in the dreary mist
and forgive me as all the snow melts away
forget how I graduated
from kindergarten today...