When I'm lying in my bed at night
I don't wanna grow up
Nothin' ever seems to turn out right
I don't wanna grow up.
How do you move in a world of fog
That's always changing things
Makes me wish that I could be a dog
When I see the price that you pay
I don't wanna grow up
I don't ever wanna be that way
I don't wanna grow up.

Seems like folks turn into things that they'd never want
The only thing to live for is today

I'm gonna put a hole in my T.V. set
I don't wanna grow up
Open up the medicine chest
And I don't wanna grow up

I don't wanna have to shout it out
I don't want my hair to fall out
I don't wanna be filled with doubt
I don't wanna be a good boy scout
I don't wanna have to learn to count
I don't wanna have the biggest amount
I don't wanna grow up

Well when I see my parents fight
I don't wanna grow up
They all go out drinking all night
And I don't wanna grow up
I'd rather stay here in my room
Nothin' out there but sad and gloom
I don't wanna live in a big old tomb
On Grand Street

When I see the 5 o'clock news
I don't wanna grow up
Comb their hair and shine their shoes
I don't wanna grow up
Stay around in my old hometown
I don't wanna put no money down
I don't wanna get me a big old loan
Work them fingers to the bone
I don't wanna float a broom
Fall in love and get married then boom
How the hell did it get here so soon
I don't wanna grow up

Lyrics & excerpt from: I Don't Wanna Grow Up by Tom Waits

1. This song is pretty sweet. I love the original version of it, but I think The Ramones totally turn their cover into a pure Ramones song too. Each version is awesome. I like the dog line a lot. For some reason. I don't know why. And I don't know what it is about Tom Waits, but I'm getting totally into him lately. Saw his scene in Coffee and Cigarettes. Awesome. I have 4 of his albums (totally legally): Bone Machine, Rain Dogs, Real Gone, and Blue Valentine. So far I think Blue Valentine is my favorite because it is so atmospheric, and though the lyrics are pretty crazy, about hookers and dope and carving stuff into one's skin with rusty nails, the music is just beautiful. With a lot of the stories though, there is a certain amount of beauty in them, it just takes a while to see. A lot of his stuff reminds me of Nick Cave. Good times. Anyway, I am going to quickly try and catch everyone up with what's been going on in my life, or just stuff I feel the need to comment on. Since nobody reads them anyway, I am going to feel free to skip out on the details, and try to mention Hillary's name as much as possible so that she will read stuff that is not directly or even indirectly somehow related to her. Also, I will try to include a number of shout outs to other people, to get more people to read. I now see the advantages of shouting out, not as way to give mad props, but rather to trick people into reading stuff.
2. I'm sorry, but people like Jack Thompson suck so bad. That's all I can really say. I mean. Talk about suckiness. Sheesh. I'm sure Hillary knows what I'm talking about.
3. Shout out to thy holy props of Melanie. Or something. If you need more info on this, see Hillary.
4. Don't wear a long-sleeved shirt under a short-sleeved shirt. It makes you look like an idiot. Hillary doesn't normally do anything of this sort, as far as I know. Neither does Melanie.
5. I work at Best Buy now. I have been working there since my last entry on June 7th, so why I didn't mention it is beyond me. Also, now Joe works there. I work in Inventory, which is awesome. We move boxes and unload the truck and stuff like that. Although I randomly get cuts and bruises without realizing it for a while, it feels good actually doing work and stuff. I think I'd go crazy working on the sales floor. Joe, who is going out with Hillary, works in Merchandising, which is pretty similar, and often does stuff with inventory, except he puts up more signs. or something. Like I know. A lot of the people working there suck. I work LP sometimes too, which includes preventing loss, greeting people, and goodbying them too. It's pretty boring, but it's fun sometimes. The media people are cool. So are most of the computer people. They are all lazy, but fun to talk to and NICE. Home theatre depends on the people, but they are cool. DI people suck, although there is maybe one nice person there. REGARDLESS, Inventory rocks. Seriously. Everyone working there is pretty cool, although they complain about each other behind their backs a lot. I think I am on good terms with everyone though. According to Jayd, I am like "leader of the new guys", if there was one. The other new guys kind of suck. Except Joe. He's getting a good reputation, better than the other "new guys" who have been there for like a month. Working hard rocks. Feels good.
6. I made a list of all the shows I've been to so far. All the concerts at least. That were big. I've seen a few people at bars, but I don't count that. Here you go:
10/19/97-"Weird Al" Yankovick
10/7/99-"Weird Al" Yankovick
9/13/01-CAKE (w/Five Star)
11/11/01-Family Values (w/Static-X, Staind, STP, Linkin Park, and Deadsy)
1/25/03-AFI (w/The Start)
3/29/03-Pennywise (w/someone)
12/13/03-KoRn (w/Sevendust, Static-X and Memento)
*4/15/04-The Darkness (w/The Wildhearts)
4/20/04-The Offspring (w/The Start and International Noise Conspiracy)
*7/24/04-Static-X-Family Picnic Tour (w/Soil, Abloom, and Arithmetic of War)
12/12/04-Muse (w/The Exit)
5/28/05-NIN (w/The Dresden Dolls)
6/13/05-Static-X-Start A War Tour (w/American Head Charge, Asesino and Blood Simple)
11/09/05-Static-X-2nd Start A War Tour (w/Opiate for the Masses and Ill Nino)
*1/27/06-CAKE (w/Tegan & Sara, Gogol Bordello, and Giorgio Aramani)
2/28/06-Buckethead (w/Kid Beyond)
*3/31/06-Queen + Paul Rodgers
4/27/06-Rob Zombie (w/Lacuna Coil and Hillary)
6/24/06-Les Claypool (w/Carneyball Johnson)
*7/22/06-Muse (w/The Cloud Room)
8/17/06-Family Values (w/KoRn, Deftones, Stone Sour)
7. I got a laptop. I probably mentioned that already. While I could have wireless internet, I guess I would have to get a wireless card for my desktop computer first. And I am not quite willing to spend money right now. Holy crap, I've spent $164 on food this month alone. Oh wait. $60 of this goes to Celebrity Theatre for some reason. Joe, Hillary's boyfriend, owes me $60 for the Muse concert, which makes his total of owed money to me $130. But he has a job now. Good times. Anyway, remind me not to spend so much money, unless it is worth it. Which it probably is. WOO HOO CREDIT CARDS
8. We got a piano. Hillary is jealous. It is in our garage. It is from my great grandma, who died a long time ago. In her will, it said to go to my dad though. I think. Or maybe my grandma, who already has one. Regardless, it's been at my uncle's for a long time, and we hadn't had a way to get it over here for a while. Oh, and my dad didn't have a house until last year. That too. My uncle cut off his finger. Left index. Yikes. Sucks. Life is so fragile, don't you think? I guess this guy at work, James, had a friend who killed himself recently. Not suicide though. I guess it was an accident, but he was showering and he was using a razor and he dropped it and zap. Yeah. Stupid way to die. Makes you think though. Literally. That way, you avoid stupid ways of dying. Maybe. Gingivitis could kill me any second now. If I had it. I don't think I do, but this thing on my tooth came off the other day. I thought it was dirt, but it may have been glue. It was between my gums and tooth crown thing from my root canal. I think I was supposed to get the crown changed anyway. Hm. Hope I don't get candy in there and have it seep into my bloodstream and die. Er, cause me to die that is.
9. Melanie just got a job too. Today was her first day. She works at Mervyn's. Verina worked there briefly, but quit to work at Tara's work. Verina started hating Mervyn's very early on for some reason. She was like "Dumb! We have to wear nice shoes to work" or "Dumb! We can't wear any shirts that have words on them!" or "Dumb! I have to help customers!" or "Dumb! They don't pay us in cash!" or "Dumb! I have to go out through this exit when I leave!"... Yeah. True story. About most of those. Maybe. Hillary had a job for a day, but quit. See, now I don't feel so bad about quitting Safeway. If only my friends had gotten jobs when I was 16 and quit within a month. Joe stayed at Fry's for like 6 months and Clayton already owes his soul to Henry's and, whenever he wants to quit, gets sucked back in for 80 different excuses I mean perfectly valid reasons yeah right totally valid and stuff yep.
10. "The reason why Eddie Van Halen is the greatest guitar player that's ever lived? He just fucking did fuck all, you motherfuckers! WOOOW! BAM! Fuckin' here's Eruption! Shove that up your fuckin' ass!" - Zakk Wylde or Hillary. I forget which one.
11. "Actually, I don't mind the term GLAM METAL. Believe or not, the term that makes my skin crawl is SHRED. To me, it infers that the NOTES don't matter much, only that they are played really quickly and percussively. Unfortunatlely for me, SHRED so commonly used now that I have to accept the term. The other offender is TABS. Does it really need an "S". Isn't that kind of like "Deers"?
...
I'm off to fucking shred on my fucking tabs." - Hillary I mean Paul Gilbert
"My uncle taught me how to mute strings, control feedback, and play the riff to "Whole Lotta Love". My dad taught me how to rewire a guitar, make hummus, and build a pedalboard.
But no one taught me how to throw a ball.
To this day, any sport that involves throwing or catching something is embarrassing and frustrating. Ken witnessed this when I attempted playing HORSESHOES. I have no idea how to control flying things.
I'll stick to something easy like figuring out Bach piano pieces on guitar!" - Paul Gilbert
I love the fact that someone awesome, whom I, and a lot of people, look up to, sucks at sports. Sports are totally embarassing to me. It's nice to hear someone so cool say that too. You know, maybe things are looking up for me!
"Linus, Jeff, and I are flying to Japan on Monday to start the tour. I'm taking 3 guitars, 2 spacesuits, 1 pedalboard, and no drugs because they EXECUTE you if you bring them into Singapore. Plus I don't do them anyway, so why start now." - Paul Gilbert
See! Another great reason to look up to Paul. Brian May never did drugs either. See, now nobody can like totally say I will have to get into drugs when I become a rock star, because the two guitarists I look up to the most are drug free. I am going to be a rock star too.
12. I traded my first bootleg(s). It was Muse & The Darkness for a 2000 Tokyo bootleg of Paul Gilbert. It is pretty amazing. For Ballad of the Last Lions, his uncle, Jimi Kidd comes out and jams with him. I'd like to play with Paul on that song. Or anyone. I am so in love with music. It pisses me off Jake moved to Seattle, because now, when I need drums more than ever, they are not here. And I miss Jake in general. Melanie thinks he's overrated. I think Hillary might agree. I don't remember though.
13. Muse's new album is totally awesome. Hopefully Paul Gilbert's will be too, though I haven't heard it. Hillary's new album, on the other hand, totally blows. Anyway, I was reading all these reviews about Muse's new CD, and I came across some random person, with whom I very much agree, even though he or she doesn't use that much capitalization or good grammar:
"every review of this album seems to be either obnoxiously negative or ridiculously positive. but 'Black Holes...' is just an expected development for Muse... it's like a summery, poppy Absolution. it's as good as the last two records, it's great, but where all this 'defining masterpiece' stuff is coming from i don't know. there's nothing here more 'ambitious, combustive, bamboozlingly bombastic' than, say, a five year-old track like Citizen Erased.

i might actually agree with the 9/10 but the critical line DiS and NME and Q among others are going for seems to me out of step with what Muse have actually delivered. look past the band's own hype and what we have here is a (relatively!) stripped down summer pop album. there has been no dramatic leap, and why this would be their 'OK Computer' when OOS and Absolution haven't... well anything's possible, but that doesn't make much sense to me."
Personally, I love the new CD. I wouldn't call it summery or poppy, but it has more of that element too it. You can still see that dark element of Muse, that's always been there. It's like that bassline that kicks in Invincible. At first, it sounds totally evil and stuff, but then he plays it again a bit differently with different chords on top and you see that it is really kind of happy and optimistic. AND THEN THE GUITAR SOLO. Did I mention that's my favorite song from the new album and I can't stop listening to it? Anyway, it is a great album, and up to Muse's standard, but it's not exceeding it. I would call it Absolution 2.0: Now with better drums and harmonies!.. And a theremin in Exo-Politics! Pretty awesome theremin though, eh?
14. The Bassline Killers would be a totally awesome band name, don't you think? Hillary? Melanie? Joe? Tara? Verina? Kat? Sarah? Clayton? Jake? Stirling? John? Steve? Grandma? Anyone!?
15. We still need to have a Vanilla Coke party and a Super Smash Bros. tournament. Crap! Maybe a party combined of the two. Of course, we need more N64 controllers, since we are going to make it half N64 and half Gamecube. I think. Maybe. I wonder if maybe Hillary has a Nintendo 64? Seems like she did. Clayton would have to be invited too. I think he has 2 controllers. Joe has one of mine I think. And, between Melanie and I, which includes three controllers, we have about one decent controller.
16. So the domain name I wanted to buy, imstarving.net, is now taken. Any other ideas for domain names/website names? I just need that, and I can get going. Jake randomly told me "I'm Starving", and it's like pure brilliance just spewing from his mouth all the time. Kind of like Hillary, except not at all. If you know what I mean. Different kind of thinking. Anyway. Give me an easy to remember title that we can use! NOW!!!!!! But keep it quiet, so somebody doesn't buy the domain name before we do. Those bastards. Anyway, it's 1, and I said I'd stop writing at 1, so... yeah. I will probably write about the shows I went to later. They were pretty awesome. Probably just Les Claypool and Muse. Don't think I'll write about Rob Zombie, even though that was awesome too. I may have already. I don't even know. We were in their video for American Witch, we met the band, and whatever. Didn't I already link to Melanie's diary? Right now, I feel like I am rambling and I wish there could be some sort of feature where I sound crazy so my voice just starts fading out, or rather a DJ fades me out and goes "all right, that was Harrison and now it's time to be gone forever!