Fuck, manye i shoudl stop gpin to esex because as much fun as i have there, it just keeps gettin more and morfe aaqwaurd. Tonight i was wtih firdayt in his room and tomanfd janelle came in and started making out on toms bad, and t was rellly aquward. d So friday said something about shes a drty person, leave her alone and shes aslut, then she left all piseed off. i hid my face bcuz i didnt want her o know who i was. So she lkwt and friday wen after her to kicik her out and so i was laying on fridays bed and tom was laying on his bef and all i vould hear was glass brekaing ans screaming ansd yelling. So i was like "tom? im scraed!" and he just kept saying well then com ehere adn i will cuddle ayou and protect you., (*i dont think he had any idea he was jst with janelle...so sad) So i went and i said i cant bcuz im with fidya right now, but i said i will tuk u into bed. so i made him get offthe shetts he was on and i tucked ihm into bed and ikised him liek 3 times (FUCK!) omg... i h9ope he doesnt remember thrt.... and i dont know if i should tell me g or not biecause beoht of us want tom...  `ux hes f ucking amazing. Sp then I hear this noise, and i m likje hi i cant od this right now, and friday walks in just as im leaving toms bed.  So that was a close call.

tom was so passe dout thpugh i sont think he has any idea what wa going on... i think the nesxt time i see him nothign will be aquward beczuse i don think he will ever remember wt happened. Shit... should i tell mieg/

I dont know whayts going on.. bcua the whole itm i was with fridya my fuckin pheon jusyt kept ringing, and it was mike. God damn, he didn even know me, all he wanted was ass. And

shit, friday jusyt calle dnad we tlaked or like 15 minds dn i dont know what to think. celeste told me hes not worht it, but she doesnt eve know him. ugh, fuck. he was comin over and i ruined it. I asked him if hes comin over cu he wasnt to be with me or bcuz eh wants as ad i ruined it. hes dstaying home nad im soposed ot call him somtim when im not drunk. I tols him its hard to think of him not high, and he hung up on me. i know he smokes more pot than anyone i have ever met. So whoy do i like himn?im toally not into the whole pot scene, and boys that smokw are SUCH a turn off. But why is it ok if fridya does? h e   texted messaged me goodnight, and UGH... stupid friday

Shitl, I dont ven know what ot do abotu kissing tom and whetehr or not i shoudl tell meg. The rule is we hes fair game but if one us ud actually startsto ike himn more than just infatuatin, then the other one has to be done with him. UGH. but it hink she sin her roo with andy right now. Andy kept calling me to make sure im ok when he and meg laeft and i was sitll with friday.

Oh man.. and Ross. He's fucking amazing. I love ross so much. He look suout for us like no toher. He calle dme tongiht when I was with friday andhe said i just wanted to make sure your home ok. I told him i was in fridyas roo and tthat im fine and i will either ay the night orfrday will walk me home and he said ok i just wnate d to make sure youre ok. I love ross, he is such a good firne. and the thing is, the other night when i went ot hims room and we watched family guy, he was in hus underwaear and it wasnt ven weair dfor either of us. I love that. He's such an awesomre guy, i lvoe him.

fAAND, fucking mike. If he doesnt stop calling me.... i font even know what i will do.

I cant believe i ruined it with frdya tongiht, mabe its ok, maye im kinda playig hr to get, but ijust dont know it. He saw me making out twth that miek kid otngiht, and while i was making ou with him, he kept walking past. I squweezed him had the first time an the second time he walked past he fille dup my beer with out m even knowing hats goin on. And he said to me tongiht that he saw me making out twith trhat boy and the whole tim ehe just wanted to make outwithme. omg... and he said htat the whole itme he was sitting on my futon he wanted to make out with me ubt didnt think i wante dto... it s fcraxzy the things pople think with out you knowing it.

I cant wait to sert yommy this wekened though. He saifd hes gonna call me saturday ngiht, and we wil go out for dinner or ice cream or somethin. I am relal excited, i avnt seen himfo like 2 months arady, and even tho it will be weird ot see him, ebven though so much has changed bwtteen us, it will be so good ot see him agfan.  I mis shim. Everythign would be perfecti f #1, he didnt cheat on me #2, he went to the U of M otr somewhere neatr here so we coul be together and aprty together and he would know how muh i lve hima nd i could trsut ihm that he would be wiht me exclusively.

Fuck, im goin to bed. Friday ust tedted me goodngiht anfd i thnk that means oi shold go to bed. Effing mike cam eto celestes room and i had to pretend i was passefd out. He even looked at me and i pretended i was slepeing! Ok l,goodngih im so ecite dto see megn tomorow and i cnat wait to go home. I think its kinda bad timing to go home, im not even gonna be able to say goodbyw to meg, but i wll leae her a note. goodnight

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