Sometimes I worry about how sad I am to be without Tommy. I wonder sometimes if its healthy to be "with" him when Im never physically with him.

But then I remember how very much I love him. How he makes me happier than ANYONE in the whole world because I laugh and smile more with him than I do anyone else. When he sends me a one sentance text message it literally makes my day, his every word makes me so happy. He's my best friend, and he means the world to me.

....which is all anyone could ask for in a relationship. Its what everyone wants for themselves, and what every parent wants for their child. To find that one person that is different from everyone else because no one else in the whole world is HALF of what that person is. To find that one person that makes the rest of the world blurry, because all you care about, all you think about, is that person you love.

And I've found that. Im so lucky to have him, and I know it. Its just so hard for me to be without him. I hate leaving him after I get to see him, it makes me crabby and it makes me cry alot. I guess thats a good sign though, it shows how much I love him and how devoted I am to him and to US.

All I can think about today is Tommy, and how I would give anything to be with him. I've never been happier in my life than I am right now in college. Evreything in my life is so perfect, and so wonderful... except one thing. My other half is not with me. I litterally feel like I am not complete, not whole, when Im not with Tommy, and that is the only thing that makes me not completely happy. Its not long tho, only 4 more months, till I get to be with him for another 3 full months. I just saw him yesterday, and Im already counting down till the next time I can see him...

I guess it always give me something to look forward to.

I love you.