I wish to thank my angel friend from across the waters that recommended I come here and start a diary. I am sure it will help me in my daily dealings with life.
Right now I find myself in a spot of deep feeling, feelings of sadness, lack, emptiness. I am not sure why I am feeling this only that these feelings have sat with me since I can remember including being a child. I have many times of enjoyment and happiness, and many reasons to be grateful, and I am. But always these other feelings walk with me, sit on my shoulder and I have tried to avoid them over and over. Even worried that when things went well it was only a matter of time before the shadow showed it's face again.
I understand that this is a fact of life, a part of who we are, these ups and downs, and yet when my heart is this heavy it is very difficult. And so I come to sit with these feelings and talk with them when needed. Give them a voice. And more importantly try to start to hear what they are saying to me. And to also share in happiness and love, to hear what that is saying to me.
Many Blessings to all...