apparently i'm suffering from depression.

not like it runs in the family and i shouldn't have known.

i read the results and cried.

isn't that ironic..

i dont a family doctor, so i cant get treated for it.... cymbalta and other anti depressants are only available through a prescription..

shit.

i should have seen this coming

feelings of worthlessness, overwhelming feeling of causing people problems, anger issues, lack of sleep, but then sleeping for 13 or 14 hours, crying..and crying, i thought it was just me, i thought it was how i was put together.

why didn't someone tell me, that being so sad wasn't normal....

now im crying writing this..

i'm a mess.