well mum just gave me bad as new shes quitting thursday nite work shifts which means that i dnt get 2 see jessie every thursday nite which is fukd cos jessies like a big sister 2 me i fukin love her and shes my advice guru i mnea i dunno what i'd do without her and i actually cried when mum told me and its my fault cos i told my mum shes a slut cos she works in a strip clut she keeps her cloths on but it is really hard knowing that your mum does that kinda shit twice a week. i'm really gonna miss seeing her and i mnea yeah of course i'm gonna see her but its not gonna be the same its gonna be shit as cos she works constanly and shes always spending time with he boy gary which i'm fine with and totally respect it just i love her so much and i'm gonna miss the thursday nites of fun we have so many memories they may not mena much 2 her but they mean the world to me. i mnea i neva go out on thursday nites no matter what my mates are doing or what party is on i'll neva go cs i'll spend it with jess and my pa's still sik as hell which mean if he goes soo i'm losing 2 major parts of me and it also hurts considering mumisnt givin it up totally shes still doing saturday's which isnt right i want her 2 stop all together and i now wont get 2 see tommy auntie lesley and uncle nils and even gary hes a part of the family now and its just gonna take so serious time 4 me over come this because they all mnea alot to me i love them there my family. i just fuk i'm upset i'm even crying now. i just hope jessie doesnt see this b4 mum tells her i cant tell her cos i no i'll just break down in tears lol i love her.