I have come to the conclusion that I am crazy. Inutterably CRAZY! I figured this out last night... well I knew it already but last night confirmed it! Lol... well... last night... *sighs* I realised that I didn't want to go to france. This is why... There will be lots of people my age... or older... or younger. And I hate talking to new people normally... but in french? I am screwed in the head. Lots of people I know would be really happy to go because they can meet lots of people... but me? No! Crazy I tell you.

There are gunna be lots of English people too (because it is a joint party funnily enough - I mean they ARE twins) but they're all gunna be my mother's age so they will scare me. Lol. Urgh but probably ALL of the cousins of my cousins are gunna be there! I met some of them at La Croix, and frankly they scared me and I don't think I really talked to any of them! Lol... but... then again... I look different now... so maybe they wont recognise me? Heh heh... Oh plus if I get plastered then maybe I'll talk... hmm. But I don't want to get drunk... so maybe I wont! Lol.

Shut up Imi you crazy idiotical child.

Oh yea and we'll be sleeping in TENTS.
We leave on monday.

I can't wait for it to be over (hopefully I'll come back to England a little browner though which will be a plus.. maybe one of the only plus's!!)... and after I come back I'm helping at Holiday Club which should be extra fun... heh. Lol hmmm... and THEN I've got soul survior to look forward to... I'm really looking forward to that... yep yep SS should be AWSOME!