Eyes

The devil could not me less

I remember thinking
How kind you were
How loving
It’s filled now
With
What makes me dark
Is my pain
From you

So many things
I wanted to say
I wanted to share my pain
Let someone else care about me

My nightmares are made of you
It’s all I see
My tears
My fears
It’s all in you

My
A moment in heaven
Away from the underworld
Where my life resides

I push myself in
I see people
People who care
They won’t ask me what’s wrong
As a false gesture of sincerity

I don’t know these people
But I love them
I don’t know their names
I want to look into their eyes
Eyes that show me I’m not alone
They say without words
I’ll be okay
Just hold on
Hold on
Hold on

They say the pain will stop
The hurt
The eyes start to fade
I reach out
My eyes start to water
Don’t go
I whisper
Reaching out
It’s gone

All the warmth
Love
Affection
Replaced by a feeling that I know to well
That I loath
My tiring
My life