so i just got home from work. . . . and i was lookin around on myspce.com and i was just doodleing around cause i have school in a hour or two so i need to saty awake. . and i was going through some of my old best friends profiles  and there was these 3 other girls that iwas best friends with in oh i think 7th grade and maybe 8th grade. . i was the werid one in the group and all that jazz. . . the only one who ever did drugs the only one who did allot of stuff. . well they're all still friends. . and i rotate my friends about every 6 months. . and i don't really know why. . it's not because i get into fights with them or we end being friends. . we just stop talking for a while. . i don't know i just feel depressed right now. .  mabe because brian was gone all day. . . or something. . . or that theres a different idaho car in the driveway that could be becky's and she might be in his room. . . . i don't really know ., . . . . i have trust issues. . yeah pretty sure i do. . . . what else . . . maybe this music i'm listening to isn't really helping much. . jack johnson's good and all but i don't think it helps depression. . . i'm bored amd can't go to sleep because i won't go to calss if i do. . blah. . . well i don't really have anything else much to say