Stop. Take a look at your life.  Are you happy now? Are you pretending to be something you're not? Stop the lies. Begin again. Step forward and smile. Truly smile. You are gifted, beautiful, unreplacable. Don't look for the dark. Step into the light. Walk down the path that leads to success. You deserve better. Don't cut yourself short. Don't cut yourself at all. Why do you do this? You bring yourself down. It is time to step it up, care a little more, and a little less. Look in the mirror and say, "Damn you look good". Love you for you. Stop killing yourslef slowly.