Yes, today is Christmas and sadly enough that means I have survived another meaningless year of depression. I hope that something/someone good happens in my life next year because I know, I can't keep going on with all this negativity in my life. Not only is it unfair but unhealthy. Like my mom say's "No one said life is Fair!"

I like the holidays only because that is the only time I get to see my mom. For the past 6 years my mom has worked the "Night Shift" 6 out of 7 days a week. It was cool when I was in 10th/11th grade because I could party whenever but now it sucks because I truly never see her. Me being at school down south makes it even harder. If you haven't realize, I have only&;three people in my life that mean anything to me, my Aunt, my Halle(best friend/saved my life), and my mother. Everyone else I truly don't trust no farther than I can throw them. So it hurts a little when I can't see my mom but that is life.......Life=Pain