|Recovery from Life Itself|
Well, Here I am . I know a few people were looking for me and I am sorry for falling off the face of the earth like that....
I am still around. I graduated Nursing school with an associate's degree in May and got my RN license in July. I started working on the oncology unit of a hospital in September and I love it so far. It is such a learning experience and the people I work with are great! It is such a night and day difference from the unit I was currently working on as a nursing assistant.
I am still with the "new" guy. Our anniversary is coming up on December 30th, actually. It is really hard to believe that a whole year has gone by since I was with B, with I know it is for the best...the war screwed him up so bad that he now lives out of his parent's attic, since getting out of the Army, eating cheetos and doritoes all day while playing DDO (not putting him down, that is the TRUTH). Oh, the "new" guy, DB, and I are living together. We aren't having sex because we are trying to save sex for marriage, so we are basically roommates right now for more financial stability. Living with him is fun, but I am trying to get used to having less ME time.
My weight has BALLOONED! I guess I could chalk it up to being happy in love, being busy, or being lazy. I current;y weigh 215...which is 10 pounds from my largest weight ever. :( I really hate that. DB says he loves me no matter what I look like and I look beautiful to him, but I don't love me right now. I need to get used to getting on a gym schedule again with all I have going on and make healthier meals, but DB is such a picky eater and will only eat 3 types of veggies...which makes healthy cooking for the two of us a challenge. I NEED to change something though. I wanted to be 145 by now, and 215 is the WRONG direction. I know something needs to change because lately ED thoughts have been clouding in my head, and that means I am considering drastic measures to avoid looking worse and I refuse to go that route again. Guess I'll be looking up time for gym memberships soon....
I am in school again (I know, I am crazy), this time for my BSN because the lovely state I live in passed a law that all ADNs (associate degree nurses) have to have their BSN within 10 years from getting the associate's degree or they lose the ability to practice nursing in this state. GRRRRR. Oh well, I wanted my BSN anyway, but not necessarily right away! I guess I will be happy in December 2012 when I am done with the BSN and can take a break from school for a while.
So for now, I work full time (40-48 hours per week) on night shift, go to school, have the boyfriend to spend time with, and NO time to myself! I can't wait until things slow down just a little, but this is life and I am just holding on for the ride!
If you made it through that update, you are amazing!!!