I am hoping that after i typed out this journal entry this will be my last one about Nick in a romantic manner.

On St. Paddy's Day I was getting ready to come back to school, and I had been debating in my mind for a while if I should break this silence with Nick. After talking to a friend of mine from school, I mainly knew it was over with. It had been almost 6 weeks of no talking and while I understand someone taking their time, I just think he and I can't work out.

So I called him and left him a voicemail. I told him I know its not going to work out but I want us to still remain friends and I fear if we go on any longer we won't be able to be friends anymore. It hurt don't get me wrong, but honestly I feel better about all of this. A decision was made and I'm not going back no matter what happens. I don't care if he tells me he's in love with me (okay well I might change my mind then). But I highly doubt any of that will happen. He and I are living separate lives and honestly its okay. But it does hurt not talking to him as a friend and I don't want to hurt anymore.


So... its friends.


~lw