I never thought you ould do this to me again.  i know loving me is hard and the situation it would create would be even more difficult.  But i never thought you would sacrifice me like you have.  I don;t know what you're thinking or why you feel so obligated to her or why you change your mind on a dimeor why you let her harass me like she has done.  You are the one who is giving her my emails, phone etc.  you are just as responsible.  When we got back together you cried as youapologized for treating me so poorly and now you do it again.  You know how i hate when you tell people what was said in private between us.  yet you still betray me.

Its funny how you have to parade around your relationship with her.  Its almost as if you are trying to convince yourself that if put it out there enough you will actually believe this is right for you.  Kind of like what you did with your first wife when she was trying to save the marriage.  Fawn all over me so everyone will see it and beleive that you are in love with me.  You underestimate people.  Everyone else can see that you are being used.  There is nothing wrong with helping her through a rough patch, but to give up your heart is another.  In your grief, you may not see that.  Holding on to Diane is like holding on to that last piece of Myra. 

You know i will always love you no matter what.  For the life of me, I don;t know why.  ABout an hour after i sent my email to her and you, i heard our song on the radio driving home.  ironic. 

One day you will realize what you have lost with me.  I just hope it won;t be too late.  Never be afraid to reach out to me.  I am here.