Wearing: blue sweats and big t-shirt

Listening to: Whiskey Lullaby--Brad Paisley & Allison Cross?

So I haven't gotten much done since the last time I wrote....actually, I don't think I've gotten anything done. lol well, I really will after this. Man...sad, slow songs do kinda make me like saddish. I just got off the phone with my sister Nicole (Nikki, 23, she lives in DT, Michigan). My Christmas present from her was for her to pay for a round-trip flight to go visit her for a couple weeks (cuz she's pretty rich now...she works in the Palace for the Detroit Pistons) and we're trying to get that all planned out which is hard because I'm planning on doing summerschool Algebra 2 (cuz i started that for the first semester but I got a D and really wasn't understanding so I dropped down but now when I retake it, it won't count as a credit so I'd rather take it during gay summerschool) So it's really hard to plan my trip to visit Nikki when I don't really know all the details about summerschool yet. But while I'm up there, it should be pretty fun cuz I'm getting a job working for the Detroit Shock (WNBA) and I'll getta go to a lotta events 'n stuff, so I'm pretty excited, but I will miss Stevie..cuz if I stay there for like 3-4 weeks, that is a long ass time! But that's still pretty far away. Man, I'm getting a huge zit on my chin I think! that sucks!! Yaay! tomorrow is supposed to be real sunny! I'm thinking skirt and halter for seth's game tomorrow...?! I really needa redo my nails cuz they are getting trashy! But they were real cool cuz they were like hot pink and dark blue...like half and half diagnolly. lol Haven't talked to Seth since after school...but he's playing dodgeball right now. hahaa he's a funny kid. Now some classical no words song is playing...lol I just put my Windows Media Player--all audio on random. hehee quite relaxing.... My ma just got home a couple minutes ago (finally...the woman said she'd be home at like 4 and it's like 6:30) but anyways, she thinks my room is pretty messy and wants me to clean it, which I will soon. I really like my glow 'n the dark stars on my ceiling...I don't know how I could sleep without 'em. Man, life is pretty good right now. Like I realized that I spend so much time seeing all the shitty parts of my life...when really every other person in tha world goes through a lotta the same things, and now I'm just like being thankful for every day that I'm here with my friends, and Seth, and even my crazy strict parents. I mean...I understand what being depressed is like..cuz I really have been there, but it's not just medicine that fixes that, it's yourself ya know? like you can't get better at anything in life if YOU don't really wanna...like I dunno I just think that a lotta people don't realize how much they truly do take for granted, and I know part of the reason I think that is just cuz I do have it pretty good...like the only sucky parts of my life right now are just things I've caused not that anyone else has done to me. Anyways.........one thing I have been feeling a little down about these days is like my girlfriends. I have gotten so close with Seth, and I mean, I haven't really lost any friends, no backstabbing from anyone, like nothing like that. Just, I feel like I can't really talk to any girls like real seriously and deeply, which kinda hurts me and I'm not sure like how or really why it got like this. I just feel like I can't really trust anybody a whole lot, and I think it's important to talk about your feelings with friends because that just creates strong, long-lasting friendships...but I dunno. Hopefully when I'm un-grounded it'll be better cuz I hang out with my girlfriends more...especially Alicia, cuz she's a sweetheart, and she's like a good influence. But I mean, I've gotten real close with Adam, which is cool and Kinzer, and Jake, and Marcus, but like, I need girls. alright I really do have a lot to do....let's see...

1) clean (room, bath rm., laundry, regular chores) 2) nails, bath, shave, hair 3) homework 4) info. about summerschool 5) make some CD's for AZ 6) count money 7) play my guitar 'n piano 8) get stuff ready for tomorrow 9) ....im sure I'll think of more before the night is out....

Well, I should probably go before my ma gets home again. I needa actually start getting my stuff done. lol

Have a good night ya'll! You should leave me some notes if you read this...cuz what else is a girl when she is grounded...? lol oh my sad, sad life. Someone should tell me how to insert some pictures too please!

                               xoxo ~jeanie~ xoxo