Awake at 5 am
Two day old text to roommate
Ignored
Last night's status on Facebook
Ignored
Waiting on my refund so I can buy my books
Waiting on the semester to start
So I can start my work study job
So I can make the money for my trip
In December
Pell Grant
Gone
Student loans
Almost gone
Nearly graduated
Travel plans
Downgraded from plane to train to bus
Despite the bad things
I feel loved
From two sources
Random kisses fly from Connecticut
Lighting on me whenever I step outside
Family
Annoyed by me sometimes
But loving me anyway
Family pets
None of them mine
But like all animals
They've adopted me
I feel almost schizophrenic
Desperate lonely and ignored
Mixed with
Madly in love and satisfied with myself
Thoughts go whizzing by
How do you slow it down
The world goes whizzing by
How do you slow it down
Life is spinning
One minute out of control
The next
A roller coaster rising up from the bottom of a dive
Insomnia plaguing me
Dreams strange
Waking up on my parents couch
Stranger
Realizing that I'm in love with someone who's in love with me
And that it's lasted through the summer into school starting
Strangest of all
And Priceless