I never thought I would love someone as much as I did like Kurt and Joe, but I have met someone new who means more to me than they could ever be. Zak has meant the world to me. He holds me in a way so I know that he loves me and wants to grow old with me. I love him so much and I dont know where I would be without him. It has been a month and 4 days since we have been dating and I already know that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I know people are thinking "Thats insane your WAY too young." But I dont care. I am cherishing this love until the last moment. I will love him until it ends and hopefully it wont end soon or ever. I love him so much. I can hardly stand it. Right now though he is grounded. On our anniversary we had this huge fight about how he wasnt respecting me in the way I wanted to be respected. He then came over the next night to make it up to me and talk to me about it. I hugged him and we talked and then we kissed. "I thought I would never do that again." Zak said and he looked like he was going to cry. Just for ME he got himself in trouble. He is grounded for two weeks from the phone and from doing anything with his friends and its really killing me. I miss him so much and the days we are apart (its been two now) my love for him has only grown and turned into passion. He called me in the morning when he was grounded to tell me that he missed me and he loved me and that he wished he could see me so bad. I wanted to run up to him (fly over there or SOMETHING) and kiss him and tell him I loved him too. This is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. He loves me and I love him and I know hes thinking of me right now. He told me while we were talking on the phone that because we were having fights and stuff, that over the 2 week break of not seeing each other that I would dump him for another guy. I told him that I loved him and that I would never do that to him. He didnt believe me, I know, because hes really scared and he doesnt want to lose me. He even told me so. I love him so much and miss him.... I LOVE YOU ZAK!!!