someone to talk to more than ever right now. im scared. i dont know what to do. and i can't stop crying. i thought the worst was over. -when anthony broke up with me. i didnt think it could get any worse. but guys it has! my one boyfriend that you guys actually approved of turns out to be more than a heart breaker. but a user. my other b/f's that you didn't approve of never hurt me. i'm sure i could have been good with any of them. thats it. now i dont care if you disapprove, don't even tell me if you approve unless you got some damn good evidence that hes a pig. im not trying to yell at you guys. im sorry. but i have sooo much anger inside me you would never understand. and im not trying to blame this on any of you. sorry guys. ok... so heres what happened:

i made the mistake of texting anthony and asked why he pretends i dont exist. a few hours later he text this exact... text.

"i really feel bad telling u this cause i feel bad that i did it but i only went out with you to make nicole jealous. i'm sry that i played u, dont hate nicole."

next message-> blah blah blah i hope you find someone who makes you as happy as nicole makes me. i thought it was the only way 4 her 2 realize that she liked me.

i thought this could happen while i went out with him. but how could i be so stupid and naive??!  why do the good guys turn out to be the biggest j-holes??!

i give up.

"love" doesn't do anything but hurt people. it doesnt last like the few still married couples think. i know more divorced families than whole families.

i give up on boys, guys.

no that does not mean im a lesbian.

but i dont ever wanna feel this way again. its gonna be FOREVER before i can trust a guy isn't using me.