So this really isn't meant for anyone.  Just me.  I'm upset.  I shouldn't be.  I was thinking about a lot that has happened in the past and I've been through so much.  I have walked through times where I was just miserable all the time and looking back at it I'm suprised I held together.  And now I don't really have problems....Nothing major.  And yet I still have all this anxiety all the time.  Feeling like people hate me or I did something wrong.  I can't shake it.  I really miss my best friend.  She's got work and a guy she loves, though.  I don't fault her for it.  I just love her and wish we could spend more time together.  Then there are some good changes, too.  I'm happy...just complicated.