-if you dont believe me, just say so.
                              -why do you keep saying that...

  I guess I am just used to
       people not believing me.
              Thats what I didnt say. 
      I dont remember what I said
only that...a mental health nurse isnt
the first person I was expecting to believe me..
      when she is supposed to be there telling me
how psychotic and derealized and depersonalized I am.
   those were the words used...
she asked me how I felt, them being used.
                 Im used to it and its true.                I am
Its been so hard to sleep... lately
         actualy, its been incredibly easy.
                         that was just a song.
                           words that draw me in..
                              its been easy to fall asleep..
                           but not to turn my mind off...
               its still there and tick-ticking away
                   your voice still in there chattering away.
and thats all Im trying to stop.
           Im trying to stop feeling what you feel.
thinking what you think
       hearing what you say.