Well I finally went to the doctor. At first she thought all my symptoms were indicative of PCOS. Fine cool at least I knew what was going on. So she sent me for blood work.

And reported back some bad news.

I don't have PCOS. But my blood work showed high amounts of the hormone the adrenal gland produces. She says that is normally indicative of a mass on the adrenal gland.

She mentioned cancer.

When she uttered that word over the phone, I felt my heart drop to my feet. Big Donnie knew instantly something was wrong. I have to go in for an ultrasound, CT scan, and a boat load more blood work.

I can't. I just don't know how to process this.

And yet all I can think about is how this will impact us having another child.

I can't sleep, I don't have an appetite. I just don't know how to handle this.