So I just got out of my meeting with my psych. We talked about my anxiety things. I had a bad night last night. I keep freaking out about everything. I fell asleep watching my fave, Nightmare before Christmas. I woke up and I knew Liz was gone. The shadows outside kept playing with my mind. I kept thinking people were outside running across my yard. I thought once that one person ran across because he wanted in my house. Then this one shadow was shaped like a person looking in my window and was just staring at me. I knew it was only a shadow but my levels just shot through the roof. I took a shower to calm down.....cuz being clean does that to me.......but when I got out, I kept hearing strange noises. So I tryed to ignore things and watch tv all night. I fell asleep around 3am. Then I woke back up and went to my own bed. I slept till about 8:30. Then I just laid there and tried to calm myself down. I didn't have any nightmares this time. Thank goodness. Those have been happening throughout the week.  I had one where my fish tank was over populated and had some really strange fish in it. One fish was attacking the other fish. Leaving gaping holes in the sides of them and you could just see everything. It was disturbing.

She gave me stuff to help me. We set up a plan. I'm really unsure about it. Logically I know it will help but yet there is this doubting side of me. The part of me that doesn't trust anything. The side I want to go away. 

We also talked about how my migranes need be medicated again. I was wiped out on Tuesday because of them. I was so sick. I couldn't move. I haven't had one like that for a long time.  So I have to talk to my mother about it. Yah-ray fun.