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Carve Your Name Into My Arm
living_dead_girl


Age: 21
Sex: F
Location: In My Head ... With Jimmy
Country: United Kingdom

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Look What Happens When You Stumble And Fall Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Mood: ...
Quote: "Every day that passes, i die a little inside. But when i think about it- i have already died"

No sleep last night. I spent most of it crying silently, and hoping i wouldn't wake my mom and Richard. Those two sleep like goddamn rocks. I wish i could be more like them.
Things have not greatly improved since my previous entry.
I went to school today, with every intention of telling Shona what i did last night, but i didn't. I couldn't bring myself to. I just couldn't.
Instead, i stabbed the guy who sits in front of me with a sharp pencil.
He fuckin' deserved it.

Last night, i lay awake all night, trying not to listen to that little voice in the back of my head that tells me i'm worthless.
But i did.

And now it's my fault.

-So much for the Son of Rage and Love
Saint Jimmy lives

Sara

 



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we will pick you up when you fall but one day you gonna have to pick yourself up dear. You are not worthless..those voices lie to you..

luv,

arsalan [devastatedsoul]

1/24/2006 1:05:05 PM
That little voice is lying to you......I have the same one and I am fighting it. Things will get better. Maybe you should tell your friend so that maybe she can help you. She cares about you, right? Remember that next time you feel worthless or uncared for.

 [Just_To_Be_With_You]

1/24/2006 1:07:49 PM
Hello. I can relate to what you are saying, for I hear the voices too, but the sad thing for me is I am 27 not 14 and I have somany scars that I always think someone it talking about me. Hang in there it will get better over time if you find a better outlet for your frustrations, anger, and hurt.

Hugs Cat [scarred~soul]

1/24/2006 2:51:01 PM
That little voice and I used to have some pretty shitty conversations. I can relate, but I won't say that I know exactly how you feel. That would be a lie. What I do know is that you can fight this. You can fall a million times and still be strong enough to pick yourself back up. [art.school.girl.x] 1/24/2006 4:42:54 PM
Aww, you took you're anger out on that guy? lol

Hang tight, don't give up! ^^

*hugs* [FangedPirate]

1/25/2006 5:37:42 PM
Cutting shouldn't be an option, darlin'. I'm sure with determination and a whole lot of courage you can pull through from it. Those voices don't mean shit. They try to drag you back, kicking and screaming. Maybe with a few hard kicks, you could kick the habit.

Sorry if I wasted your time with this.

Love your screen name. Rob Zombie, woot!

 [Foamz]

1/25/2006 5:50:45 PM
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