|It's my shit...|
...for me to get off of my ass and do/make something off my life.
I have felt so lost for so long and maybe some of it was that I was scared too but I have to just get out there and do it because I know I will feel so much better. So, what am I talking about? Well it could apply to all aspect of my life really. I need to start getting experience in my degree area because in a year and a half I will be applying for a "real" job and if I don't have any experience, I'm fucked. In my love life, ...nothing drastic like you are thinking, we just need to get all of our shit in order because right now everything is kind of up in the air. In my personal life, I need to lose weight. I have known that for a long time, it's not like it isn't obvious lol. But, like a lot of other people, I got lazy and blew it off. Well, my health is starting to get really bad and I don't want to feel like I have been feeling anymore so that will be one of the biggest tests of my life to see if I can actually do it. Any support is extremely appreciated! :)
Tomorrow, I am going down to the Seneca Niagara Casino in Niagara Falls and applying for a position there. I am hoping they can give me something relating to my major and something that pays a bit more than I make now so I can take more visits to see my love and help him out as much as I can while I still can. It's not that I am not happy at Quiznos anymore but it is just getting stale. A girl can only handle so much repetativeness ya know? lol.
My "new eating habits" will start tomorrow too. I hate the word diet...it never sticks and I am not going to be on a diet for the rest of my life so I will call it new eating habit lol. I am going to be really hard on myself this time....that might not seem healthy to a lot of people but it will work for me and I will be happy about it in the end. I will keep you posted on my progress with that.
I am going to get my school books tomorrow...ugh! I feel horrible about the whole thing because I have no money to put towards it so my mom has to cover the whole thing and since books are so outrageously expensive it just makes it that much worse. I figured out that if I have to get all new books...it will cost...$474.35. If I can get all used...it will cost...$355.90. And, if you do the math like I did, that's a difference of...$118.45!! So, needless to say I have to get there as soon as possible before all the used books get nabbed up!
School starts on the 18th and I am actually quite excited about it. I have had a good break and I am refreshed and ready to jump back into it all. I have some good classes this semester and I am hoping I can pull a GPA of at least a 3.4 so I can make the deans list. That would make it a lot easier on me knowing I have to take summer courses lol.
I guess that's all for now....so peace out girl scouts...