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10/31/05 Monday, October 31, 2005

"Taking Me Alive"

You desecrate your temple with anger.
A hollow body fueled by hate
Hollow
I feel no better.
Anger
Don't look for answers
Hatred
Blown away there was never a reason why

It's sick either way
It's sick either way
It's sick either way you look at it so

Take what you want and leave a hole inside.
Take everything you need to keep you satisfied.
Break everything you see then try to hide
Take it all but you're never taking me alive

Now you have used my weakness against me.
A Trojan Horse already through the gate.
Weakness
I spiral down into the
Excuses
Search for excuses
Hatred
It's time to take an honest look inside




it takes more, it takes more
it takes more
and now that i'm willing to beg
now it stands right in front of me
dig this dirt out from under my nails
and I feel this, picture my face
sad to say not today
it just, it takes more

it takes more, it takes more,
it takes more, takes more
it destroys me, i'm sitting here
it destroys me, i'm just sitting here
destorys me, i'm sitting here
it destroys me, i'm sitting here

it destroys me, i'm sitting here
it destroys me, i'm just sitting here
destroys me, i'm sitting here
it destroys me, i'm just sitting here

and it stands right in front of me
dig this dirt out from under my nails
and I feel this, picture my face
its sad to say not today
it just, it takes more

i'm just sitting here more
and picture my face, it takes more
its sad to say, i feel this way
it takes...

"Choke Me"

As of now I'm down straight up
And I can turn to the box for some peace
Or a box for a piece
Or a box for a smoke
But they're all gonna choke me
[2x]

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me

It's like a fucking drug deal
I'm sitting here waiting
I'm calling you back
and you won't call me back
and it's fucked up, but at the same time it just made me want you even worse.

For awhile I was cleaner than now
Then I started to destroy myself
With things that I love now the things that I hate
Until it finally broke me

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me

Fuck my ass [x2]
Choke me [x3]

As of now I'm down straight up
And I can turn to the box for some peace
Or a box for a piece
Or a box for a smoke
But they're all gonna choke me

You're so crazy [3x]
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me


"Just A Little"

Surprise me im looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your feet somehow

Surprise me im looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your....

Things appear gone..things appear gone

Where'd you go?
seems like your better half said it all
you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it all

Surprise me im looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your feet somehow

Surprise me im looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your....

Things appear gone..things appear gone

Where'd you go?
where'd you go?
you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it all

wonderful wonderful wonderful wonderful

angels can fly
motivation....motivation (gulp)

Things appear gone..things appear gone..things appear gone

Where'd you go? where'd you go?
you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it all
you're wonderful you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it all
where'd you go?
seems like your better half said it all
you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it



"Maybe Memories"

As we trudge along through the mud
And we tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second

Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive

As we trudge along through the mud
And we tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second

You showed me how
You seemed to find a hole
But I just laughed and smiled
Begged and rolled my eyes
Even cried and
Denied the truth to you
Just like the truth to me
Mostly lied

I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back

White it out like glittering wax butterflies

Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive

I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back

I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back

"Poetic Tragedy"

The cup is not half empty as pessimists say
As far as he's sees, nothing's left in the cup
A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up

A singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy

So he voyages in circles
Succeeds getting nowhere
And submits to the substance
That first got him there

Then in violent, frustration, he cries out to God or just no one
Is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy

He feels alone
His heart in his hand
He's alone
He feels alone
I feel....

Then on that last day he breaks
And he stood tall
And he yelled... and he takes his life


"Say Days Ago"

I still remember a year ago
the times we spent
I think that I'm happier now
up from the down
by all means
it's strange cause I feel the same way

I think of what it looks like
I think of what it tastes like
same strange
said it's strange cause i feel the same

makes me ill

still remember what it tastes like
what it felt like








Hell-o Ash, darling. *Frenches* Long time no see. How was your fu*cksgiving...I mean...heh..... [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:55:58 PM
LEAVING NOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:56:24 PM
^()^ <----------- Smile is happy.....huh? [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:57:16 PM
I'm bored.... [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:57:35 PM
I'll never stop leaving you notes.... [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:57:54 PM
Do you like slinkies? ^*^ >,< BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! see you top side, bye darling have to go play with James.....heh....... [ICPJugglo] 11/30/2005 12:59:19 PM
sad you are not on. you were though, oh my fu...cksgiving sucked a$$. my grandma poisend the turkey. yours? [InsaneClownLover666] 11/30/2005 10:19:31 PM
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