Hey guys not that anyone will read this but I really need someone to talk to !!!! I cant seem to talk to anyone about how I really feel in case  I hurt someone. used to think that I was worth nothing and that god hated me, I thought that I had conquored that, but oh how wrong I was!!! those insecure feelings are creeping their way back in and all because my parent think that I am fat!!!! I know that they only care that I am healthy but they never seem to have a compliment for a daughter like myself. I hide myself behind a mask that only I know is fake!!! I feel like a fraud but people would cringe if they saw the ugliness inside! But now that my dad has parkinsons I dont know what to do Mum thinks that only she and dad suffer but she isnt we all suffer but some suffer alone, like me, I have no one to talk to no one to burden further with my endless complaints and the fact that my sister who I should look to for guidance is a whore who would rather vomit and eat it again before refering to me as a sister. I seem to be the only one in my family who doesnt fit in. I cant consentrate for crying