Why is jealousy wrecking my life? Maybe because i let it. I just can't get rid of the evil voices in my head, i know that my boyfriend is not cheating on me, I know is intentions are true. Why do I keep punishing him for what past relationships have done to me. Maybe i'm just trying to protect myself from getting hurt again. Will this ever go away, or will this always be something i have to fight. It's like an out of body expierience, i know what i'm thinking/doing as i'm going through his phone to see if he called a certain girl, but i can't stop it, i have to know. I don't want to screw up my relationship with my boyfriend by him thinking i can't trust him. I do trust him.