I cheated on my boyfriend once...he knows about it. We're back together but I just found out that it still haunts him (we write poetry and he wrote a poem about it. At first he didn't want me to read it, but I did. It was deep too. 'Like acid eating at your stomach from the inside out'...yeah, stuff like that) and he's worried that I might still be untrue. He has every reason to feel the way he does, but I love him so much that it kills me to know that a mistake I made hurts him like that. I realized that he was it for me the day after I cheated because I was on vacation and I messed with a guy while I was gone. I got sick the next day and it was hurting me so much that I called him and told him everything. I have told him before that all I want is him, but my word isn't good anymore cause I've gone back on it before,so I have no way to convince him that I'll die without him. Not only would I die, I would be the one that takes my life. I can't do it without him. I'm scared that he might break up with me cause he can't trust me and if you don't have trust, you don't have anything, right?