I really like my best mate and its driving me nuts. i mean we get on fine, we pull.....and stuff...but...he says he _{doesnt know} how he feels about me. I  dont like being fucked around...at all...grrrr its like dan all over again. We act like we are going out...well when we are on our own, like pulling and holding hands and cuddling and messing about...you know couply things...and we go to the cinema and see each other all the time. hes really sweet and argh...i never thought id find myself liking him.

I think im gonna play it cool for a while, play hard to get and all that jazz. I think hes just soaking up the attention hes getting from me and freya (a girl he met at a weekend away) but to be honest, shes no good for him....shes pretty immature and has an absolute school girl crush on him..i dunno... mebbe im just jealous. 

he goes back to school soon, unfortunately i dont really have anything to do as i didnt get  into my college course....well it was full...so im speaking to a student adviser on monday. hopefully. i might just continue with my art at home and get more into it and shit. i dont know

I wish life would take a turn for the better for once.

night xx